Today was a rough one for me. Training in the morning went well and I thought I had a run that would qualify me to finals. Turns out it wasn’t enough and I needed to step in up from a 9 over the transfer to a 12, even though a lot of athletes were doing 9′s. I guess the judges just expect me to do a lot more that others.
I managed to qualify for finals in 2nd position. I was feeling really good going into finals and thought that if I landed my run I would be on the podium. I ended up landing the run I wanted to do and thought I had finally cracked into the ever elusive top 3. Turns out the judges, once again, saw it in a different light and put me in 4th, yet again.
I am not sure what I need to do anymore. I have adjusted and change my skiing to try and accommodate what the judges what to see at events and still I have no luck on getting on the podium. As hard as I try, I feel like there is nothing I can do that the judges seem to like.
I would be totally fine with getting 4th, 5th, 6th etc. if I knew myself that there was something in my run that I had stuffed up. But today, I am totally mind blow as to how I was given the score I was given as I feel I did everything to the best of my ability.
Congrats to Joss Christenen, James Woods and Gus Kenworthy for making the cut. You guys skied exceptionally well and did some crazy tricks. I want to be clear hear though, I am not in anyway trying to take anything away from these athletes. I am just trying to figure out how I can be up there on the podium with these guys.
I am glad this is the last event of the season as I am starting to get the feeling that I don’t want to compete. I really need a break from it to collect my thoughts and try and figure out what I can possibly do, if anything, to be in the top 3. Its hard to explain to you how I feel, but to be so close to the podium, yet so far all season, is a pretty hard thing to deal with.
Im not 100% sure if I am doing the big air competition yet as I still have a lot of thoughts going through my head and I am unsure if I want to compete in the event if I am going to get the same feeling I got today. Plus my knee is a little sore from today ;-(
Regardless, I will keep you posted on how Big Air goes and if I decided to do it.
Jossi and I on the lift before Eliminations
The weather was rolling in and out during Eliminations. Glad it cleared up for finals
Dub 12 on the Transfer jump. Photo: Newschoolers